I always have 'hope'. But in my 40th year of following ISU sports, especially Football, I'm never again going to go "All In" emotionally. Yes, I donate. The closest I came was after OSU win - then we proceeded to lose the rest of the year's games - to include the bowl game.
I had hopes of seeing improvement this year. Losing to UNI, who we beat last year just took the wind out of the sails for me for this season. Again, I hoped something might show against EIU. But nothing there to feel good about. Nothing.
So for the rest of this year, yeah I'll check the scores and go on with my life. And if improvements come I'll gain hope for next year.
Call it cynicism or old man syndrome, but it's really just 40 years of nut shots and a natural thickening of callouses on the sack.